[ xie lian is intensely, intensely empathetic, and coming free of a memory like this surprises him - he takes a soft, sharp breath as the vision and the music start to fade, and his heart just aches in his chest. there are many things he doesn't understand, about diluc and kaeya's realm, but the way diluc felt - the way xie lian felt - when his father defended him resonates so deeply that it leaves him momentarily stunned.
he thinks about feng xin, breaking his own arm.
the loss - and the feeling of helplessness, of being powerless- resonates like he's been punched in the gut.
(what's it like? to have a father who shows pride. xie lian isn't sure if he would've liked that more or less than his own - he and his father butted heads so often. still do, even now, but he's learned from the firebrand mistakes of his youth, and he's tried to understand, and seeing diluc's father die like that makes xie lian miss his own, almost desperately.)
after a long moment of processing, xie lian reaches out, fingers curling in the air, before he gently touches diluc's arm. ]
... Mr. Diluc. [ his voice is soft, as ever. ] ... It is a memory.
[ the music had long since faded and the memory gone, but he found himself stuck there, staring and...crying?? there sure were tears running down his face.
reliving the worst day of your life does that to you. ]
...OH [ xie lian's touch bring him back, he looks at him apologetically. ]
I'm sorry...I got caught up in it...
[ he rubs at his face, taking a deep breath to collect himself. ]
[ oh the tears make xie lian look so immediately worried. he fusses around in his sleeve for a moment as he pulls his hand back, and eventually offers diluc a small silk handkerchief. ]
Here - no, please don't apologize. That you have lost something so dear to you... I am sorry that you had to experience such a thing.
[ these words are very, very genuine and gentle, as he clasps his hands back in front of himself. san lang looks to canopus, immediately worried, too, hopping off of xie lian's shoulder and going to find his friend. ]
It was not your fault. But - to feel powerless and frustrated in such a situation... it is only natural to think that it is.
[ he takes the handkerchief and gets rid of the mess on his face. he doesn't tend to show emotion like that, these shards really are powerful. he takes a breath. ]
Thank you, Xie Lian. I greatly appreciate it.
[ canopus is at diluc's feet, greeting the ferret with a gentle head butt, she's thankful for the concern. ]
I spent 4 years searching for answers, saw many things during that time. Many lessons were learned along the way, shaping me as I am today.
[ xl has always been so easy to talk to? diluc is fond. ]
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he thinks about feng xin, breaking his own arm.
the loss - and the feeling of helplessness, of being powerless- resonates like he's been punched in the gut.
(what's it like? to have a father who shows pride. xie lian isn't sure if he would've liked that more or less than his own - he and his father butted heads so often. still do, even now, but he's learned from the firebrand mistakes of his youth, and he's tried to understand, and seeing diluc's father die like that makes xie lian miss his own, almost desperately.)
after a long moment of processing, xie lian reaches out, fingers curling in the air, before he gently touches diluc's arm. ]
... Mr. Diluc. [ his voice is soft, as ever. ] ... It is a memory.
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reliving the worst day of your life does that to you. ]
...OH [ xie lian's touch bring him back, he looks at him apologetically. ]
I'm sorry...I got caught up in it...
[ he rubs at his face, taking a deep breath to collect himself. ]
Sorry that you had to see that...
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Here - no, please don't apologize. That you have lost something so dear to you... I am sorry that you had to experience such a thing.
[ these words are very, very genuine and gentle, as he clasps his hands back in front of himself. san lang looks to canopus, immediately worried, too, hopping off of xie lian's shoulder and going to find his friend. ]
It was not your fault. But - to feel powerless and frustrated in such a situation... it is only natural to think that it is.
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Thank you, Xie Lian. I greatly appreciate it.
[ canopus is at diluc's feet, greeting the ferret with a gentle head butt, she's thankful for the concern. ]
I spent 4 years searching for answers, saw many things during that time. Many lessons were learned along the way, shaping me as I am today.
[ xl has always been so easy to talk to? diluc is fond. ]